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Home > News & Articles > News > Keep going

Keep going

11th June, 2014 by Trevor Silvester

I press play on the CD player and the opening bars of Madonna’s ‘Holiday’ suddenly filled the car. Instantly my two sons, Mark, 7, and Stuart, 5 burst into excited song. I sing along too. It’s 1991, we’re on our way to Majorca, and I’ve never felt so lost and alone.

I was a year into being single after a painful divorce. Is there any other kind? To add to the weirdness of singledom after ten years of marriage, at the same time I threw my career up into the air by transferring from Thames Valley Police to the Met. I went from everything and everyone being familiar, to me feeling that I understood virtually nothing in my life. It had been a long, mainly lonely, scary, and pretty empty year.

In ways I didn’t really appreciate at the time, my boys had been my anchor. I had them every day I had off and they gave me a focus I otherwise lacked – even if sometimes that was only to spend hours when I was alone keeping ahead of them on the Nintendo. I’ve found sometimes focusing on anything you can manage, no matter how trivial, is better than focusing on everything you can’t. And at that time, life was what I felt I couldn’t manage. In the midst of feeling like I was stuck and drifting at the same time, I decided I needed a holiday, and that they deserved one, so I took out a loan, chose a destination, and we were off.

It was strange picking them up. It almost felt like a hire car scenario, where they were being given to me in perfect condition and their bodywork would be checked when I returned them, so when Stu’s eczema flared badly on his feet midway through the holiday it necessitated carrying him around several Farmacias to find some cream for his feet and something for my panic. That aside, we had a brilliant time. Pizza every day. The same pizza. From the same place. We were completely sure – and remain of the same opinion – that it was the best pizza we’d ever had. boys in MajorcaWe spent long days on the beach talking boy, playing football, building stuff. I remember waking one morning to find Mark drinking out of the fountain in the bathroom. It was a bidet. Foreign seemed a lot more foreign back then.
And in-between I had time to think, and hope, and dream. They revived me, although, again, I didn’t properly appreciate it at the time.

And while Stu swears I did him irreparable psychological damage by letting him drift out to sea on a Lilo, (does 8 feet count as ‘out to sea’?) at the end of the week I dropped them off unharmed, bodywork mainly intact. I cried in the car the whole way home.

2014. Menorca. I press play on my iPhone, and Madonna plays again. It’s a song that’s either lasted the test of time or nostalgia is what it used to be. I share a smile with my boys, and we raise a glass. We’re in a nice café overlooking a stunning bay. I look at their plates. Pizza. Pretty sure they still had it every day. Stu tries his beautiful one year old daughter Sasha with a crust, Mark pretends to be shot by his amazing two and half year old son Heath. My heart couldn’t be more full.

We have a week together. The boys, their wives, Bex – who’s done just about everything to make the whole thing possible – our grandkids, and me. As you can probably guess, it was a very special time for me – and I think for them too, the Majorca holiday was as big a deal in their childhood as a three year loan repayment could have hoped for. We have great memories of us there, and it’s a wonderful tradition to build on with our new generation. I can’t wait for next year.

So why am I telling you this? Well, it depends who you are, because what I want to say, to anyone who needs to hear it is…keep going. You might feel lost right now, maybe even hopeless. You may feel that you’ve made choices you can never recover from. I think you’ll find you’re wrong if you just keep seeking what you’re looking for, even if you don’t know what that is. Keep looking. As I sat watching them build sandcastles in Majorca I didn’t know I was just a few months away from becoming an instructor at Hendon training school, where I would discover the calling that would give me a purpose to my life that changed it utterly. While I was eight years from finding the love of that life, it needed me to keep going to find her. As Steve Jobs said, the dots only join up when you look back. I agree; ahead is supposed to look chaotic, but the dots are out there, and you’re the pen. Keep going.

I want to say to whoever needs to hear it, don’t let yourself be limited by anyone, including those you love. Especially those you love. There would be many occasions when I felt trapped or held back by a feeling of responsibility to my boys. But I wasn’t, I was trapped and held back by my lack of belief in myself, and just blamed them for it. And I proved that when I threw my life in the air again by leaving the police and starting a new career as a hypnotherapist while the boys were still at school. So I know just how different life feels when you make yourself responsible for everything you do or don’t do. And I know how much more free I was to love my kids when I stopped making them a burden.

Menorca 2014And I want to tell you that things will work out if you keep going, just not how you might have expected or dreamed. I had no idea that one day I’d be sat watching my sons being fantastic fathers, or feel my heart melt at Sasha’s smile of recognition or Heath’s giggle when I tackle him in beach rugby.

As the saying goes, everything turns out ok in the end. And if it’s not ok, it’s not the end. My only caveat to that being, take action, keep going, keep looking, keep learning, and make your life your responsibility. And eat pizza on the beach with anyone you love, as often as you can.

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  1. Gravatar for Anita MitchellAnita Mitchell says

    11th June, 2014 at 2:43 pm

    Perfect!

  2. Gravatar for DaniDani says

    11th June, 2014 at 3:43 pm

    So wonderful to read, and poignant for me on so many fronts, not least of which that after many such holidays with my parents, sisters and children, that they have now come to an end with the old folk being too old to be part of what used to be both a chore and a delight, and always emotional.
    My life is so much more than I ever dreamed it could be and seeing my boys make good loving relationships, I can be assured that the values that have been the rock thoughout my life are now also embodied in them. Cant wait to be able to share all this with my grandchildren one day, even if they are in Australia, Circle of life eh!

  3. Gravatar for Peter McLintonPeter McLinton says

    11th June, 2014 at 4:06 pm

    Thank you for sharing
    It made me glow

  4. Gravatar for Tina ShawTina Shaw says

    11th June, 2014 at 4:17 pm

    That’s just gorgeous Trevor – almost got a happy tear.

  5. Gravatar for TamTam says

    11th June, 2014 at 4:33 pm

    <3

  6. Gravatar for Donna GreenDonna Green says

    11th June, 2014 at 5:40 pm

    Wonderful post – I did get the happy tear!

  7. Gravatar for Nick JenkinsNick Jenkins says

    11th June, 2014 at 8:06 pm

    Lovely stuff.

  8. Gravatar for jagdeepjagdeep says

    11th June, 2014 at 8:44 pm

    Good one trev xx

  9. Gravatar for LucindaLucinda says

    11th June, 2014 at 9:33 pm

    I’ll be sharing this with many loved ones. Thanks, Trevor.

  10. Gravatar for Lorraine OLorraine O'Mullane says

    11th June, 2014 at 9:50 pm

    You’ve got a way with words Trevor! 😉
    That is beautiful, thought provoking and apt – thanks! Xxx

  11. Gravatar for EffyEffy says

    11th June, 2014 at 11:10 pm

    Bootfiful, just bootiful. And, I hear ya. xx

  12. Gravatar for MartaMarta says

    12th June, 2014 at 2:44 am

    Perfect timing – perfect sentiments – Perfectly wonderful! 🙂

  13. Gravatar for CaroleCarole says

    12th June, 2014 at 8:36 am

    Trevor,

    I cannot tell you how much I loved reading this. Your true voice comes through so strongly I feel you are in the room with me as I read it.

    This will resonate with so many people – I don’t normally share other people’s blogs but for sure I will share this one. Not just through social media but I know a couple of people who need to hear this directly.

    Thank you for taking the time to write this – and I hope that family life continues to awe and inspire you 🙂 xx

  14. Gravatar for DianeDiane says

    12th June, 2014 at 9:48 am

    Ooh I could relate to that one!
    Thanks for sharing so openly, spot on x

  15. Gravatar for Jennifer CookeJennifer Cooke says

    12th June, 2014 at 11:00 am

    Thanks Trevor, as ever inspirational, enriching and encouraging xXx

  16. Gravatar for KatherineKatherine says

    12th June, 2014 at 12:54 pm

    That was just what I needed to hear today! Thank you Trevor, great post!

  17. Gravatar for Adele RichmondAdele Richmond says

    12th June, 2014 at 4:25 pm

    What a wonderful story Trevor! Thank you for sharing it – it resonated with me on a number of levels and was also something that I needed to hear at this point in time! It is paradoxical that when someone throws all the balls in the air and life seems chaotic and uncertain there is a sense of control and excitement in the fact that one is in the midst of taking action and moving their life in the direction they want it go even if they don’t know exactly what will happen or where they will end up!

  18. Gravatar for ali knowlesali knowles says

    12th June, 2014 at 6:03 pm

    amen to that xxx

  19. Gravatar for Patricia McbridePatricia Mcbride says

    12th June, 2014 at 6:26 pm

    What a wonderful piece of writing. It bought tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing this story

  20. Gravatar for Helen DayHelen Day says

    13th June, 2014 at 3:07 pm

    This has to be my favourite blog read ever. Thank you

  21. Gravatar for Sandra McBrideSandra McBride says

    14th June, 2014 at 11:34 am

    I so enjoyed this… I felt that ‘escape with the kids’ moment…. when nothing makes sense and your eating pizza with the kids at the beach …. they are ‘in the moment’ and you are ‘in your head’ where there is only a jumble of past/present and bewildered future…

    I love the moment of ‘throwing it all up in the air’….Therein often the future begins to form…… great journey with an even more interesting destiny! The insights you share have helped enrich the honesty of my own journey! Love you Trevor….

    Sandra (McBride)

  22. Gravatar for CarolineCaroline says

    15th June, 2014 at 1:36 pm

    Thank you, I needed to hear that today! You’re the proof I needed to see that there is life after divorce, and things will get better! Just gotta keep looking, and learning, and connecting those dots…

  23. Gravatar for Sarah MaleSarah Male says

    24th June, 2014 at 4:54 am

    Such a beautiful and personal story. Thank you for sharing x

  24. Gravatar for Peter CurriePeter Currie says

    5th September, 2014 at 10:36 pm

    Great story and still ripped years later!

    Struck a chord with my move from Scotland down to London years ago. Tonight is my last night in Lanzarote so it was a nice co-incidence to read it, very topical. Haven’t had a nosey on here for a while.

    It will be the buffets Ola and I will be reminiscing about food wise in years to come!

    Anyway, got to go, band at pool bar started. Giving it big licks on his guitar.

    Thanks for the story.

    Pete

  25. Gravatar for Marilu MeddaMarilu Medda says

    9th September, 2014 at 1:55 pm

    That was beautiful Trevor! …yes, always keep going!
    All the best to you and your family 🙂 xx

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